Happy 9th Birthday Lachlan.

Girl With An Addiction is dedicating this blog to my Little Brother Lachlan.

In my last blog I mentioned my other Little Brother Lachlan.

Well this is his story:

On the 4th of July, 2001, Lachlan was born. He was so small, but he was perfect. He was my little brother. On the 18th of August 2001, only six weeks later, he died from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS). I remember exactly what happened, but I don't really want to blog about it.

So, this is for Lachlan:

Happy 9th Birthday, Lachlan.

I miss you Little Brother,

I wish I could hold you and cuddle you again.

Six weeks may have been short, but it was enough for me to love you more and more each day.

I think about you a lot,

I dream about you too.

I even have a blue teddy, that was made especially for you.

I remember when you were born, and I was excited to have a new baby brother.

But then six weeks later God made SIDS take you away from me, your brother, your dad and your mother.

God took you because He needed someone that special to be up in Heaven with Him.

I wish I could hold you,

I wish I could cuddle you.

I remember bathing you once.

You were so cute and small.

I wish I could play with you again.

Or even just sit with you.

Holding your teddy with you, would have me cry with joy,

But now it brings me tears of sadness, as I hold your little blue toy.

There was a difference between you and Jay:

I met you.

I held you.

I smelt you.

I kissed your little forehead.

I talked to you.

I bathed you.

I sat with you.

I played with you.

I fed you.

I sung you lullabies.

I rocked you to sleep.

I watched you sleep.

I got the chance to watch you grow in the few six weeks you were alive.

But I did not get the chance to watch you grow up...

And I wish I could.

As tears roll down my face every time I think of you, I remember that;

From the day you were born, I was your Big Sister,

And I always will be, Little Brother.

I will cherish every second of the weeks I got to share with you.

You will never leave my heart.

So, this is for you, Lachlan:

Happy Ninth Birthday, Little One.

I miss you,

I love you.

Love always,

your Big Sister, 

Jessica

xoxo

Girl With An Addiction

xoxo :P

Happy 10th Birthday Jay.

Girl With An Addiction is dedicating this blog to my Little Brother Jay.


Well, today is my brother's 10th birthday.


You're probably thinking "Ok, why is she writing a blog about that?!" Well I'll tell you why:


On the 21st of June, 2000, my mother gave birth to a stillborn, Jay. I never had the chance to see him. I never had the chance to do things that most sisters would take for granted, and I would give the world to do them. I never got to watch my little brother grow up. I never got to be a big sister.


In a few weeks, I will write another blog about my other little brother, Lachlan, who died of SIDS at six weeks, a year later.


To say I miss them dearly is an understatement. Words cannot comprehend how much I love them, but this is best I can do:


Happy 10th Birthday Baby Jay. 

I never got to see you, 

I never got to hold you, 

I never got to cuddle you, 

I never got to smell you, 

I never got to take of you,

I never got to play with you, 

I never got to bath you, 

I never got to watch you make friends, 

I never got to help you with your homework, 

I never got to kick a ball around with you, 

I never got to argue with you, 

I never got to laugh with you, 

I never got to watch you grow up, 

I never got to protect you, 

I never got to be there for you,

I never got to have meaningful conversations with you,

I never got to be at your wedding,

I never got to be an aunty,

I never got to sing to you, 

I never got to be your big sister... 

To do things that most sisters take for granted, would mean the world to me right now.

But even though I will never get the chance to do those things with you, I know that I will always love you and you will always be in my heart. 

I miss you little bro. 

Happy Birthday. 

I love you Jay.




Girl With An Addiction
xoxo =P

OMG. I am a crap blogger...

Girl With An Addiction is a crap blogger.


I havn't written a blog for over a month.


CRAP!


Because I'm lazy, I'm going to blame it on school. I had a MASSIVE assessment for science, and so I have not had a chance to write a blog. I'M SO ASHAMED! But it was about 2 weeks overdue anyway... :( So I'm hoping I won't lose too many marks.


I have also been sick. Let's just say very sick.


And I had Writer's Block... *Shakes head*


But, now that I have finally finished the stupid assessment, my weekly blogs SHOULD be up to date within no time... Hopefully.


So, not much has happened in the past few weeks:

• In May it was my boyfriend and I's anniversary (yes one year, because that's what an anniversary is. Not a "one month" anniversary, you silly people). He gave me a cute necklace that says "Jess" on it, a really pretty aqua Pandora charm and took me out to dinner at a Chinese restaurant. CUTE!
• School has been crazy with assignments and reports, which I am still waiting for and should be getting next week... (OMG!) Half yearly exams were hell and I did alright in some of them... I think :P
• Now that the World Cup is on, I've had hardly any sleep and am very annoyed with some of the teams :( The Socceroos will win!!! :D

And... that's about it.


An irritating thought just crossed my mind...
I don't like "bloggers" who "blog" by putting up photos of weird guys and scene people, with pointless comments or pictures to follow. That's not a blog. That's Google Images. A blog is where you write your opinion on something, or if you have something to say that you want people to know about. Or even if you just want to be a writer and write about you're daily life. It's not about wanting the world to know how depressed you are, or how hot this guy is.


It's annoying and pointless, because most of the time nobody cares.


I'm not aiming that at anyone.


So, I'm off to munch on chocolate and play "The Sims Bustin' Out"!


God Bless,


Girl With An Addiction
xoxo :P

Waiting Rooms

Girl With An Addiction is finally writing to you =P

I hate waiting rooms.


I hate doctors who take too long.


I hate recepionists who are so disorganised, you may as well hire a 3 year old to answer calls and make appointments.


I hate 3 hour waits.


I hate the fact that when I hurt myself, as I do very regularly, I have to go to the emergency room because it's faster to see a doctor there, than it is at a local medical centre.


I am officially a regular at my nearest hospital... I have been there 3 times in the past year. THREE TIMES!


The first time I needed to go there was when everyone thought I had appendicitus, because my stomach literally felt like I had a knife covered in barbed wire, rotating in my stomach then had been lit if fire. We waited in emergency for about 2 hours, then kind of stayed overnight in a room where they gave me some medicine that basically knocked me out.


The second time was last year when a shelf of a bookshelf fell on both my ankles... THAT hurt.


And, the last time I went was when a metal baby gate fell on my toe... THAT hurt almost as much as the time before =(


The medical centre should have a thing called a "organiser" so all they have to do is plug it in & IT takes all your information, so when you need something, they actually remember you when you come back 2 minutes later!


They also need to be smart when they make rosters, so when its a busy Friday night, they have more than 2 doctors on so a) more people can be helped faster and b) there won't be as much of a wait!


It's just so irritating sitting around in a boring waiting room along with about 20 other people, thinking where in the world are all the doctors? They've got loads hired, they just don't know to how use time efficiently, and so they waste other people's time by taking yonks!


People these days... They've got no idea...


As you can see, I am very fed up... but I suppose thats just life.

Girl With An Addiction
xoxo =P

Daddysmilk

Girl With An Addiction is dedicating this blog to Daddysmilk =P

Before you go all hay-wire on me, Daddysmilk is infact a band. An English/Norwegian band to be exact!


You may not have heard of Daddysmilk and if you have not, you have not lived...
They are without a doubt, the BEST alternative band. EVER. (Tying with The Offspring.)


The band consists of:


Lead Singer and Rythm Guitar - Kristoffer
Lead Guitar - Keith
(New Addition) Bassist - Steve
Drummer - Marius


Sadly, their old bassman, Jay, left for personal reasons, and has just joined his girlfriend's band, The So & So's.


http://www.myspace.com/richardduttonmusic




So, if you don't know who Daddysmilk are, or have never heard of them, I advise you go here:


http://www.myspace.com/daddysmilk


http://www.supajam.com/fib2010/entry/Daddysmilk

http://www.youtube.com/user/Daddysmilk

http://www.ilike.com/artist/Daddysmilk


http://www.facebook.com/pages/Daddysmilk/12678037870?v=app_19935916616#!/pages/Daddysmilk/12678037870?v=wall


If you want to watch Marius being... Marius, go here:


http://www.youtube.com/user/karius85

So, enjoy listening and I hope you'll love Daddysmilk just as much as I do =)

Maybe not as much...

Girl With An Addiction

xoxo =P

Winter...

Girl With An Addiction is writing to you =)


Why do I love Winter?
I do not know, I suppose it is undecided.


Why do I hate Winter?
Because it's too cold!


It isn't even Winter yet, but here I am in trackies, a jumper and warm socks, with the fire going and candles burning (Yes, I am a pyro =P), drinking a hot coffee.


These are the Con's of Winter:
Having to wear tons and tons of clothes (that can be good or bad =P )
Winter uniforms,
Rain cancells sport,
Can't do much outdoors,
No clothes, because it rains =(
Not having anything to do,
Not having a fireplace, heater or aircon,
Not having any pets to cuddle,
Not having a doona or a really warm blanket.


These are the Pro's of Winter:
Wrapping up in blankets,
Snuggling with the one you love,
"Borrowing" your boyfriends jumper/jacket but never actually returning it,
Cuddling your girlfriend to keep her warm (and you, but you don't actually tell her that)
Ugg boots and trench coats
Scarves and beanies
Fire and Candles
Hot chocolates and coffees
Movie marathons
Shopping sprees
Cinema Outings
Long phone calls
Dancing in the rain
Kissing in the rain =)
And about a million and one other things that make Winter so great =)


From a Fashion Perspective, Winter is the time when all girl's say "I have nothing to wear!" BUT, most of the time, this is a complete lie! There are a range of reasons why girls say that they don't have any clothes in Winter, but in reality they actually have the most clothes compared to guys. Count yourself lucky girls that you have a wider and more fashionable range than men! If you love looking good and having all the new clothes, then Winter is great if you have a heap of jackets, jeans, trackies, long-sleeve shirts, boots, uggbotts, dressing gowns, socks, gloves, scarves and beanies and of course, stockings. Whether it be any of these items of clothing, you can create any great outfit with pretty much all of them!


For a more Sporty outlook on Winter, this is awesome, because sports like AFL, Football (The REAL type, with a FOOTball!), Rugby, Rugby League, Cycling, Ice Hockey, Netball, Dancing, Skiing ( in some cases Baseball) and for those who like to say it is and think it is, Shopping =)
Winter is awesome for the sporty type, because there is a much wider range of sport in Winter than there is in Summer, BUT because of the cold and wet weather (even though it rains MORE in Summer) there is a lack in participation in sports. It is an more efficient and fun way for people to get warmed up and be warmer in general because of all the running around and it's a great way to stay fit during the cold days.


I have a new perspective on Winter after writing this. Now hopefully after reading it, you too will enjoy and appreciate it more, because Winter only comes once a year =)
So, why do I love Winter...?
Well there the answers =)
 
Girl With An Addiction
xoxo =P

First Week of Term Two

Girl With An Addiction is FINALLY writing to you =P

I am very sorry to anyone to who actually reads my blogs, for not writing daily as usual. I know it's a stupid excuse, but... I've been busy! So, now that I have a whole afternoon on my hands, this is what has happened this week:


On Sunday, I went my boyfriends first AFL game of the season... His team is crap, but he is actually pretty good :) I have no idea how to play AFL so when his dad, sister, brother and his brother's friends showed up, it got awkward. Luckily, his sister doesn't know how to play either. I'm hoping to go to every second game of his because it will be a home game and so I can actually get there... AND so I can be a good girlfriend and start going regularly. I still can't believe that even though he played last year for the whole time we were dating, I never went to one of his games until this year... WEIRD! Later on, I went to church twice and then home as normal. So, that's basically what happened on Sunday.


NOTE: The previous post was about Monday, so read that if you want to catch up. =P


So Tuesday was the first day back of Term 2. Boring as usual. We had an Anzac Day service thingo where this man came and told us about how many Australian troops died in all the wars we fought in, then stuff about war and his family. To be honest, I actually didn't mind the service, unlike everyone else. I myself love history and learning about Australian history, especially all the wars.


I personally think more people should actually LISTEN in those services because it is a big wake-up call to those who think war was only about people who wanted more violence and action. FALSE. Back then, and today still, people go out and fight in the war out of loyalty to their country and love for their families.


So, to all of you that think war is only about action and murders, YOUR STUPID!


Anyways, so at the assembly, we had to sit in the scorching sun for about half an hour... The time was crap, but the purpose memorable.


Funny though, today linked in perfectly with our History class where our topic this term is: Australia and World War One! So, I know I'M going to love this topic =)


On Wednesday... What happened on Wednesday...


NOTE: Due to lack of memory capacity, laziness and addictions, I don't remember what happened on Wednesday or Thursday... That is bad.


On Friday it was our Cross Country. I did not compete because I am a girl, and yes that is my excuse for everything. But seriously, it because of the female agenda. My boyfriend of course ran... and came 1st! I feel bad because I was severely jealous but he has never come 1st before in Cross Country, so I cut him some slack. (I hope you're reading this bub) I was and am very proud of him! =)


I lost my voice on Friday... It sounded like a guy on helium haveing voice-breaks every second word... It was HORRID!


Our Youth had our Launch Night, which was bloody awesome!! It was so much fun =)
 BUT, it was so unfair because I couldn't sing properly due to my stupid voice =(


Altogether, a great day =)


And, FINALLY this brings me to today! My mum and I had our first class of term 2 for belly-dancing this morning! Only one more until intermediate starts :) Our teacher, Mel, said I was cute today and now my mum is known as the Cheeky one. She also played her favourite song today... its alright... BUT SO ANNOYINGLY WEIRD! It gets stuck in your head for ages! =P


I have a new friend and he is tall =)
I shall call him Mr Tall!

Girl With An Addiction
xoxo =P